Dear God I have nothing. My mind is deluded. My understanding is feeble. All that has been stripped away. All I have has become simple, my body that bows to You from this nothingness. Nothing is all I have, and I give everything. I am here begging you. My creator, make me well, resurrect me.
Prayer at 2PM: Dear God, I have nothing but You.
5PM
Nothing saves me from the torment of pain but all my faith in Your mercy.
Nothing can be taken to that sacred space to meet You.
No understandings
no expectations
no fear of suffering
nothing but the bottom of my heart.
Suffering takes me here, but then even that has to be surrendered.
I didn’t know that it could be, in the midst of such pain.
Only at the rock bottom does that begin to leave as the sacred space begins to open up. A moment here and there.
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